Don’t tell me that I need a scar
To represent that I’ve been marked
I’ve got scars that no one has seen
Scars in my head, scars in my genes

Don’t tell me that I overreact
No one should ever be treated like that
Told that I’m not good enough
Until physical scars pop up

Don’t tell me that it doesn’t count
If I’ve never been hit in the head
My head is broken, you just can’t see it
Could you see it if you saw me dead?

~written exactly three years ago

Now I’m not going to delete bc idk how and also idt I’d be able to access the blog from the outside if I did so imma change the password to something I won’t remember

tai-korczak:

1. Sonder: The realization that each passerby has a life as vivid and complex as your own.
   
2. Opia: The ambiguous intensity of Looking someone in the eye, which can feel simultaneously invasive and vulnerable.
3. Monachopsis: The subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place.
   
4. Énouement: The bittersweetness of having arrived in the future, seeing how things turn out, but not being able to tell your past self.
   
5. Vellichor: The strange wistfulness of used bookshops.
   
6. Rubatosis: The unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat.
   
7. Kenopsia: The eerie, forlorn atmosphere of a place that is usually bustling with people but is now abandoned and quiet.
   
8. Mauerbauertraurigkeit: The inexplicable urge to push people away, even close friends who you really like.
   
9. Jouska: A hypothetical conversation that you compulsively play out in your head.
   
10. Chrysalism: The amniotic tranquility of being indoors during a thunderstorm.
    
11. Vemödalen: The frustration of photographic something amazing when thousands of identical photos already exist.
    
12. Anecdoche: A conversation in which everyone is talking, but nobody is listening
    
13. Ellipsism: A sadness that you’ll never be able to know how history will turn out.
    
14. Kuebiko: A state of exhaustion inspired by acts of senseless violence.
    
15. Lachesism: The desire to be struck by disaster – to survive a plane crash, or to lose everything in a fire.
    
16. Exulansis: The tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it.
    
17. Adronitis: Frustration with how long it takes to get to know someone.
    
18. Rückkehrunruhe: The feeling of returning home after an immersive trip only to find it fading rapidly from your awareness.
    
19. Nodus Tollens: The realization that the plot of your life doesn’t make sense to you anymore.
    
20. Onism: The frustration of being stuck in just one body, that inhabits only one place at a time.
    
21. Liberosis: The desire to care less about things.
    
22. Altschmerz: Weariness with the same old issues that you’ve always had – the same boring flaws and anxieties that you’ve been gnawing on for years.
    
23. Occhiolism: The awareness of the smallness of your perspective.
    

I know that my purpose
Is keeping others alive,
But I know they’d survive
Without me.
I get off on helping,
And being polite,
But in the big scheme of life,
What does that mean?
Do they even need
Someone like me?

There’s tons of good people in this terrible world
Some don’t even do it for themselves
I tell myself it’s all to see the smile on their face
But really it’s just saving me from hell
And there are moments when I give up
Do I have what it takes to live love?

the-introverted-thespian:

man101:

• Lean your head back until you feel a light stretch in your neck tendons.
  
• Hold for fifteen seconds.
• Lightly hum, and gradually bring it down lower as you go.
• Center your head.
• Now lean your head to the left until you feel a light stretch.
• Hold for fifteen seconds.
• Center your head.
• Repeat this process leaning your head to the right.
• Lower your head down and put your hands behind your head.
• Try to push your head against your hands upwards, while providing resistance from your hands.

I need this as a man with an abnormally high voice… literally… I can sing alto

I’m havin a good time when I
Look to my right
You’ve been standin with your friends
Watchin us dancin all night
I know it’s been four years and I still
Haven’t apologized
But I’ve been nice to you since then so please
Don’t ruin my night